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Hi. This is all about my memories and days with my friends
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The brand new me.
Saturday, September 11, 2010 @ 5:05 PM
So, finally got back to blogger after spending most of my time on livejournal. So recently, N levels have just started and three papers are finally done. Now I'm left with FnN, Math, Chem, Bio and Lit. Major papers are the worst. Best of luck to me! Everything have been going well and pleasant. So 2010 is about to end in a few months already and today is September 11th. the saddest day and the world and not I'm bored to death all alone. Redone my blog skin hopefully its nice. Okay will stop here now and update when I have the time.
Chantel reika kaylee goh has died inside/.
Monday, July 26, 2010 @ 5:08 PM
Wow it's been long since I post up here. So now recently, I have been going through a lot of pain and suffering about studies and my health. The upcoming N level has made my whole class dead and it is hell everyday. It really sucks and to think that all of us are expected to get through to Secondary 5 and passing English, Math and best 3 subjects. Do you know how hard it is to pass MATH!!! Omg I am damn scared about this. Everyday the fear of it is gaining. So in the mids of preparing for N level we have to stay back till 5.15 everyday just so we can study but seriously it is so not productive. But now I kinda give up a bit cause of all the worries and problems within me which not much people know. I really want to do well but I am scared, afraid, sad, terrified. I don't know what to do anymore. Save me !! :( I wish everything will just go pass as soon and everything will work out just fine. I've been listening to a lot of sad song and a lot of happy videos so that my mood won't be that bad. I am not myself anymore, I don't know who I am and what I've become. I don't even bother to study for any of my exams now. I need to have the drive to succeed. Help me, Help me, Help me, Help me !!!!!!!!!
Saturday, May 29, 2010 @ 2:08 PM
I'm a happy person now. I am glad you all are in my life may we never face that kind of mistake again. HAHA anyways change my blogskin again. Love this one more than any others I put up. So school just ended and into holidays !! But have to go back to school next week for structured lessons to prepare for 'N' Levels "scared". Working hard now, trying to get things into my head. I seriously need help for MATH !!!! Why must you be so hard and confusing. I have nothing else to say. Living life to the fullest. I'm bored now, how I wish I'm out now. Okay shall stop here maybe I will do my holiday homework to pass time.
goodbye/.
Sunday, May 16, 2010 @ 5:46 PM
We have been friends since secondary 1 and I don't want everything to end like that. After a few days of thinking, I think that all the unhappiness was caused by me. I was wrong for everything I did. But I was too afraid of losing you just like that. Since secondary 2 we fought and secondary 3 we were fine. Soon after they just barge into our life and take you away like it was a gift from me. I didn't like that but you don't understand. I know life is about everyone else and not only us, but you don't understand the feeling I have inside. They want sooooo much of your attention. When we fight I have this feeling that they are celebrating at home. They seem to be out breaking us apart. Maybe my feeling is wrong, but this is how I feel. If you can't accept that, then I don't think anything would work out now. So is everyone else, I would rather go away than risking everyone to be unhappy. So with this note I end my life with you all around. I don;t want you all to suffer just because of me.
Farewell to you my friends, I love you.
sorry/.
Saturday, May 15, 2010 @ 9:00 PM
Omg it's been so long since I updated my blog, didn't really have the mood to. So these few days have been rather difficult because of some problems in school adding up with MYE but it just ended last Thursday. So this term, I'm not confident in passing my MYE well because of the things in my mind. I feel really stupid that I can't even hold on to my friends, from one to the other it is just painful when they just leave like that. I have experienced too much until I can't take it anymore. I hate how everyone of us is drifting apart because of me and my useless mouth which doesn't talk much. Anyway I'm glad to have known all of you and I'm sorry for blaming the others for stealing them but I'm just afraid and apparently you don't understand how I feel when it happens again. Since everyone is so unhappy because of me. I shall take my leave so you all will be happy again.
I am glad to have known you and please know ILOVEYOU.
Friday, February 26, 2010 @ 5:12 PM
AHHHHHHHHH, FEEL DAMN F*CKED UP NOW!
Why do you have to make things so hard for me. I
am trying to do my best here to get you all involve
but you all are not even trying. Do you f*cking know
it is disrespectful. I thinking for you all do you know
that?!??!?!?!?!?! What am I f*cking supposed to do
now. IGNORE EVERYTHING!!!!! EVERYONE IS
F*CKING GOING TO BE HERE DO YOU KNOW
THAT!!!! gosh please have some respect!
(should i even invite you all? i think i've made
a wrong decision. its all my fault!)
Sunday, February 7, 2010 @ 9:45 PM
If friends were that important in life,
why am I missing out so much?
Without this love and care can I actually
live on by myself?
Does everyone really need a friend to
depend on, if it is so I think I am a
failure in my friendship.
@ 6:40 PM
I hope my heart didn't have to hurt like that.
It feels like its being pierced through my heart
with the blood bleeding non stop.
Who can help me stop this heartache in my heart?
It hurts so badly until I can't breathe anymore.
Friday, January 29, 2010 @ 4:19 PM
YAY!! Its the end of the week again. Like finally! Have to finish my FnN coursework and its
taking damn long. Who wants to help me? HAHAA. I'm to tired to even think of how to do
task analysis. OMG this year is like so short and I'm damn scared for 'N' level. What if I fail?
How will I be able to face my parents. OMG this is stressing me out. It is just to much to
think about. HAHHA
Going out with ANNE tomorrow to shop a little for chinese new year. And later at night I'm
going for her cousin b'day party just cause I don't want to be home because of my mom and
my sister. They are being such a B*TCH that's why so I will accompany her. I know it will be
damn awkward. I shall see how tomorrow.
OKAY I NEED TO DO MY FnN SO I SHALL STOP HERE BLOG SOME OTHER DAY!!!!!
Friday, January 22, 2010 @ 6:37 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALYSHA!
May all your wish come true and have a happy day kay?
Must be happy and get well soon with the head problems
of yours..loveyou manymany...
CHANTEL! Love the present kay! HAHAA.
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CHANTEL, creating my own life without any interference, love everything i currently
have right now and hoping things will get better. I landed on earth on 070694.
Currently still getting her knowledge in an awesome school. Always a person who puts
others before herself and always striving for the best. Interested in singing and
photography as always. Lastly, forever and will be the one and only.
I'm a happy person now. I am glad you all are in my life may we never face that kind of mistake again. HAHA anyways change my blogskin again. Love this one more than any others I put up. So school just ended and into holidays !! But have to go back to school next week for structured lessons to prepare for 'N' Levels "scared". Working hard now, trying to get things into my head. I seriously need help for MATH !!!! Why must you be so hard and confusing. I have nothing else to say. Living life to the fullest. I'm bored now, how I wish I'm out now. Okay shall stop here maybe I will do my holiday homework to pass time.
We have been friends since secondary 1 and I don't want everything to end like that. After a few days of thinking, I think that all the unhappiness was caused by me. I was wrong for everything I did. But I was too afraid of losing you just like that. Since secondary 2 we fought and secondary 3 we were fine. Soon after they just barge into our life and take you away like it was a gift from me. I didn't like that but you don't understand. I know life is about everyone else and not only us, but you don't understand the feeling I have inside. They want sooooo much of your attention. When we fight I have this feeling that they are celebrating at home. They seem to be out breaking us apart. Maybe my feeling is wrong, but this is how I feel. If you can't accept that, then I don't think anything would work out now. So is everyone else, I would rather go away than risking everyone to be unhappy. So with this note I end my life with you all around. I don;t want you all to suffer just because of me.
I hope my heart didn't have to hurt like that.